32 Weeks Recap and a "Mama to Bee Shower"

Another apology for a delayed post...the weeks are starting to really fly by and there is just a lot to do around here!

I am now 32 weeks and 3 days, according to the timeline I've been using all along with the due date being April 21, and with my days turning over on Thursdays.  However, we went for an ultrasound this Thursday, and the tech told us they are using April 18th as the due date from her earlier measurements, so I was 32 + 3 on Thursday at the u/s. Either way, the ultrasound went well and they feel that the placenta previa is resolving.  Baby's head is so close to the cervix they had a hard time getting an accurate measurement of exactly how far the placenta is (needs to be at least 2.0 cm) but they think it's at a minimum 1.70 cm and probably closer to 2.  The OB we saw said she would be comfortable clearing me to attempt a vaginal delivery, but that at this point I would go in with a slightly increased risk of bleeding if it's still low lying like this.  Good news is due to the GD, we have another ultrasound to check her growth in 4 weeks, so they'll look at the placenta again and give us a solid recommendation about how safe a vaginal delivery could be at that point.  Hopefully she is growing appropriately then, and isn't the size of a Thanksgiving turkey ;) Otherwise all this conversation will be for naught, and they'd schedule a c/s anyway.  At least right now she is head down, with her face towards my back, her butt just under my diaphragm (thank you) and her feet still wedged under my right side ribs.  We didn't get very good photos of her this time - she looks like a squashy alien baby because her head is so jammed down and everything is smooshed, so I'll leave those out as they are a bit disconcerting and creepy :)

The GD has been a frustrating and emotionally challenging trial for me.  I've had a few nights where I've not had good readings or can't explain why a level is higher than it should be based on what I've eaten, and just had a meltdown.  It's those nights I feel like I'm not always doing the best I can, and that sometimes I make selfish choices about what I eat because I just want something so badly.  I feel so guilty when I've eaten something that throws my level way off, and I know that every time my glucose is high, she's getting more than she should be too and it puts her at risk.  I told Matt I think this is a really hard way to learn something about the selflessness of parenthood really fast - the choices I make do not affect only me any more, and in fact could negatively affect my child.  I try not to stress about it all the time, but sometimes it just gets the best of me, and I really just can't wait for her to be here so I can start to worry about her in other ways ;) And eat some damn ice cream while I worry about it!

Since my last post, I've had one amazing shower hosted by my best friend, her mom and my mom, and I couldn't have imagined it to be any better! Molly did such a beautiful job planning all of the details and it was a "Baby to Bee and Mommy to Bee" theme.  I'm only sad we didn't get any photos of us together, and we didn't get our usual "all the girls" shot either :( We'll have to recreate that the next time we're all together, but hopefully we'll be +1 girl by then!! 

Here is the 31 week belly at the shower

Tables 

Gift table with a picture of sweet little girl! 

Cute silverware!

The tables set up with honey sticks favors, beautiful flowers, and damask and yellow table runners

The cake - thanks to Lynn, her homemade goodness was delicious! The little bee cake pops were SO good too!

 My two "mamas" looking proudly on

Most of the present opening photos are not the most flattering - I should maybe have re-thought the bare legs and dress thing, since most of the full shots have a lovely view of mah thighs.  And, note to self, look up and smile with the gifts for pics - much better than multiple double chin shots ;) So, anyway, these are not posted due to favorite gifts or anything like that, just ones that I think I don't look like a pregnant gremlin in! That being said, I was overwhelmed with how much our little baby is already loved.  We wouldn't be able to do so many of the things we hope and plan for her in the beginning without help from all of you, and we are so lucky to bring our girl into this world with so much love already here.  Thank you, thank you, thank you! 

Yay, diapers! 

Bee onesies and socks! 

Love it :) 

The child can now eat in style!

Ok the next two are hilarious - Ashley lent us the snap n go stroller to use until we get our bigger one, or don't want to use the infant seat with the stroller.  It was assembled, and we needed to fold it down to get it home.  It took 2 adult males and at least 3 adult women to figure out how to collapse this thing!! We were caught on camera experiencing our first parenting gadgetry fail!

Finally - the 32 week belly pic - not the most flattering shot, but it's what we have this week nonetheless! 

8 weeks to go! Can't believe she still has room to double in size...